Fear of Developing DID

F18, I know DID can't develop outside of early childhood but I read somewhere that it can start to present or become noticeable later in life. I'm worried I may have DID because I've been in a state of almost constant dissociation, dp/dr which I'm sure is triggered primarily by anxiety (and then the dissociation fuels the anxiety so it's a bit of a vicious cycle.) I've experienced dp/dr since I was 9. I've also been having a hard time with my memory - usually short-term, which I can recall if I focus on what I'm trying to remember.

I also lose focus suddenly quite often and I'm worried that that's me "switching".

However, I haven't experienced any really intense recurring trauma as a child which is kind of like a hallmark of DID - I was a very sensitive kid albeit and my parents would argue (without violence) sometimes and I was scared of most things growing up.

Also all the internal dialogue isn't helping at all. At best I think I have a dissociative disorder - at worst I worry that it's Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Is anyone able to give me some peace on this? Even more insight into DID would be appreciated.

No offense to those with DID of course, I know there are many successful people with it and I don't carry any bias against you - I'm just afraid that, on the off-chance I do have it, it's going to flip my whole world upside down and completely change my perception of myself.