Is being unable to masturbate normal?

Asking this here so I can know if other people also feel like this, and if it's going to get better.

I've always had pretty shitty dysphoria, specially bottom. I can live with my chest but not with my genitals. I plan on getting phallo and I doubt I'll ever change my mind. I'm pre-t so I haven't experienced bottom growth yet.

However, I also have an abnormally high libido. Higher than most guys I meet, in fact, and much higher than the only friend I have who is a cis male. I have gigabytes and gigabytes of porn, and I'm pretty much always thinking about sex. But... I can't masturbate and I have never been able to.

Every time that I'm horny (which is... 24/7), I try to touch myself and I don't feel a thing. I mean, obviously I feel my hands touching my bits, but it's like touching another part of the body. I've never been able to feel pleasure.

I tried several things. Toys, penetration, doing it while watching porn, but it's all the same, and it's been like this all my life. I've been beginning to think it might be dysphoria related.

I haven't seem many people in my specific situation. I've seen people who can masturbate but feel bad about it, or can masturbate but can't orgasm.

Again, sharing this here because I want to know if anyone else has experied something like this, and if it's gotten better with t? I'm kind of scared I'll never be able to feel sexual pleasure which sounds honestly terrible.