Remembering i dont have a gender...

Ive sometimes had these moments where I call myself a girl and I just accept that I'm like i am, because it's just easier and if i want to do something to make me happy it costs lots of money and so i just.. The most i do is try to dress masc because i prefer it but i don't look masc so.

I don't want to look like i do but working on it is hard, so if i just accept my silly little agab am i still agender? Even if it sucks sometimes i dont have energy to try and change it.