I'm a girl who likes girls.

When I was elementary school, all of my girl friends had crushes on boys. So when they asked me who my crush was, I picked the boy everybody else had a crush on. But my real crush was the girl who was at the top of our class.

When I was in middle school, one of my girl friends kissed me. It felt weird but the good kind of weird. She was my first kiss.

When I was in high school, my brother let me watch Game of Thrones and I couldn't stop staring at Daenerys Targaryen.

When I was in college, I dated guys because that's what girls do.

When the pandemic started, I binge watched Grey's Anatomy and it was the first show I watched that showed a character figuring out their sexuality which somehow affected me deeply (in a good but confusing way).

After more than a year of figuring things out, I still don't know what my sexuality is. I might be bisexual, I might be pansexual. Who knows? But what I do know is that I like girls.

And I'm not ready yet to say it out loud in the real world but just writing this out makes me feel so much better.

Damn, this really felt good.